I went to court this morning up in Rockville with a family to see what the outcome would be of a hearing involving their son. After a couple of hours witnessing a string of drunk drivers come before the judge, we learned that his case (not a DUI) would be continued at a later date. The mom apologized for having taken my time when no outcome occurred. I told her that it wasn't a problem, that I always found time in court interesting because you were able to watch the parade of the broken. I didn't mean it in a harsh or condescending way at all. It's what is is. Broken people standing before a judge, asking for mercy and hoping they get it. I thought about how stark it all was. There was no place to hide. Everyone in the courtroom knew why you were there. Everyone knew what you had done. For all the "dealing" that goes on, courtrooms are brutally honest places. It's not the only place to see the parade. We see it every Sunday in church services. The difference is that church services are not brutally honest places. Churches are places we hide. Our brokenness is undercover. We are ashamed and would prefer that nobody know the real condition of our souls. WE don't want to know the real condition of our souls. Depravity scares us when it should free us. I am coming more and more convinced of the depths of my own depravity. The lying , lusting , coveting, slothful being that needs forgiveness not as a spot remover but as a continual bleaching bath from which I never emerge. As C.S. Lewis said "I've never had a selfless thought sense I was born." Even my most heartfelt worship precedes from a tainted heart. Even my most effectual prayers are diluted with self interest. Even my most generous acts are garnished with pride. There was a time when this would send me into a guilt funk of the worst kind. It still pushes that way but now I'm more willing to be in the parade. I'll march. I'll carry a banner. Put me on a float. Walk me down main street to be gawked at. The only thing I need to know is that at the end of the long parade of the broken comes the Broken One who was bruised for our iniquities. One of my favorite songs is by the group Waterdeep from their CD "Everyone's Beautiful". The song is called "He Will Come" and includes this in the final chorus:
He will come, He will come
He'll remove His flaming garment
Place it on the lowest harlot
And we all will see His face
I cry almost everytime I hear the song. I'm in line for the garment. All of us in the parade are.
This Sunday, when I take my place in the communion line, I'll give thanks for the sweet parade and pray that one day the honesty won't scare us as much as the grace amazes us.







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